Connection.
Like an abused animal…
For the first time feeling kindness.
Flinching and tensing up.
Such a new sensation.
Strange and unknown.
I can only imagine…
But I know now.
The deep hurt within.
One I’ve pushed away.
For so long.
I’ve denied it.
I’ve ignored it.
I’ve become oblivious to it.
And when I’ve felt it again…
I let it be.
But maybe…
Something else must be done.
Acknowledge it.
Feel it.
So I can finally heal it.
No shame.
No fear.
No weakness.
None of that attached to it.
It’s pure and raw.
I understand…
It’s got nothing to do with me.
The way people treat me.
It’s nothing but a reflection.
Of their own within.
Doesn’t mean this pain isn’t real.
Nor should I blame myself.
For my desires.
Expectations.
Wishes.
I just want to finally learn…
To feel and experience…
What’s it like…
To connect with someone…
Truly safe.
