The first step.
I’ve been drowning in my own emotions and discomfort.
Trying to somehow remedy it all.
Seeing problems with no solutions.
And pushing everything away.
But this isn’t right…
Frustration and desperation won’t solve anything.
Sure, there’s a reason for my discomfort.
And yet…
The solution might not be what I think it is.
I know I need change.
But suffering is optional.
Something’s different out there.
Waiting for me anyway.
There’s no way I’ll be still forever.
The water flows.
But I need to focus on something else.
Not the things that I think I need to focus on.
And not the things or situations that seem to be causing discomfort.
I need to create.
Create things.
Create a life I’ve been dreaming of.
More than anything, I need to start.
Waiting for something magical to happen…
It might.
But I can also do something about it myself.
So many visions…
Ideas…
And so many options.
Transformation is imminent.
The growing pains have been haunting me for months.
They come and go.
And come again.
Because I haven’t been doing what I need to be doing.
I haven’t been fully honest with myself.
Looking for problems elsewhere.
But it is all within.
Truly…
I need a passion project.
Take care of my body better.
Spend more time doing things that bring me joy.
I’m tired of waiting or being overlooked.
But I also don’t need to do things just to prove something to others.
And I’m growing tired of doing things in a way that’s not good for me.
Just because society says that’s how it should be done.
It is what it is.
But I don’t want it to be like this.
What can one do against centuries of false prophets?
That actually pushes humanity further away from their truth.
Instead, causes pain and destruction.
Well…
I do need to be careful.
It’s healthy to be angry.
But some things have to be done anyway.
It’s just that…
Humanity thought of it all.
Built the structures of society.
And then shunned those who simply existed beyond its ridiculous rules.
Ones that are as they are, and as they should be.
Human beings.
Born this way.
By design.
Not society’s design.
God’s, universe’s…
Whomever’s.
Maybe their own.
Drawn in the astral plane.
It doesn’t matter.
So much flows from within…
Finding balance can be a challenge.
Society has failed us all.
Every single one of us.
Agree or not.
Believe it or not.
It makes no difference.
It’s time for me…
To combine everything that I am.
Strongly, bravely…
Walk forward.
Find balance.
And, actually…
Compromise less.
Let go of fear.
That still lingers somewhere.
Dare to be.
Dare to write.
Dare to speak.
About the uncomfortable.
About everything we’ve been running away from.
Only to find ourselves in shambles.
And realize…
That our hearts were right all along.
And that joy and happiness…
Is not on the path paved for us by others.
Some may point us in the right direction.
But it’s up to us to find our own path.
Just take it…
Take the first step.
